ugh cant sleep :( th

ugh cant sleep :(
the ting is running through in my head that i was told "i want to be like u because u don't care so much about the relationship between u and urbf in the future do u?" by my friend :(
i said "YES, I DO CARE!! IM JUST ACTING FINE, BUT I DONT WANT TO LOOSE HIM! BUT NOW, I CANT DO ANYTHING 4 THAT, SO I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT NOW, THATS IT"
:(((
i really dont wanna loose him...
wanna be with him 4ever...
help me god!